My friends, the last two days have been very sad for me. Over the weekend I decided to investigate further my dream of teaching English abroad(TEFL) in Italy. That dream looks like a bleak one. I had believed the wages would be a good amount but it turns out not to be sufficient. To those who know me, I am usually quite the positive and upbeat thinker but this has beaten me down to a depressed state. I feel lost and crushed. What am I to do? I am hoping that I can think of another way to achieve my dream but for the moment it is not coming to me. I hope the sadness does not last long because I don't like the control it seems to posses. Any ideas?